In which Demi needs sleep. And more time. And more willpower.

Okay, postitive Demi has well and truly vanished. I'm now facing my biggest, most difficult and time-consuming essay. While it's my last one and only 3000 words, I'm seriously concerned I simply won't get it done in time, if this week's anything to go by. I've filled this past week with more events and friend catch-ups than I really should have, and both my work and accompanying motivation have seriously suffered.

Add to the fact that I'm gaining weight by the bucket-load (since my parents don't even think about buying tasty treats, whereas when it's my money I'm more restrained. But if they're there, I will eat them.), have dark bags both below AND above my eyes and have developed a confusing sickness whenever I've had a few sips of alcohol this holiday, probably down to exhaustion and an immune system which is running on empty... I'm so ready for this to be over.

Just think of summer. Just think of summer. Just think of summer.

And my (up-to) 7 weeks of unpaid 9-6pm work experience. Holy moley. xo

I need this right now SO BADLY.

In which Demi is feeling positive. Yes, really!

Finished my essay last night, which means that I don't have to curtail my plans for today and can have a whooooooooole day off, something that hasn't happened since the first day I got home. A pub lunch followed by intense gaming competitiveness with some friends, then a BBQ (please be sunny, please be sunny, PLEASE  be sunny!) with my girls from high school and some drinks in town. A smashing reward if I do say so myself :)

Two essays left. 6000 words. 22 days left = 272.7 words a day.

I can so do this :) C'mon magic playlist, keep me working!! xo.

In which Demi settles back in.

Back home now until the 4th May-ish. It's been lovely - freshly baked bread most days, cupboards over-flowing with yummy treats I would never normally let myself buy, cuppa-offers almost every hour and the chance to catch up with my family and friends at home. Of course it's not all happy days. For starters my mother is a maaaassive morning person, and will happily come in and open my curtains if I'm not up by 9.30. Yeowch. Slowly remembering how to get back to sleep in bright sunshine (it's a regular occurrence over summer).

Also now missing one tooth, after having it wrenched out by my lovely dentist to make room for a new one. Fabulous. Hel-lo gaping hole in my mouth. Thank God it wasn't closer to the front or there would have been no smiling from me, indefinitely. And that would be bad. Very bad.

Heading into Leeds for my chat/interview (how do you dress for something when you don't quite know what it is?!) with the London PR firm next Thursday, so I'll be brushing up on my past research in time for that. Fingers crossed it goes well.

One essay down, 8,500 more words to go... I consider this alright progress. I've slowed down a little since finishing it, which isn't good, since I wanted to have my second done by Monday/Tuesday but that's starting to look dubious. Lots of late nights are in order if I'm going to fill my days with seeing friends and lazing about with Sky+ (oh how I've missed you!).

Trying to stay calm and focused rather than panicky like I was over Christmas. 8,500 words in 27 days = 315.8 (to be precise) words a day, some of which will be taken up by researching and other stuff, but even so.... I can do this :)

I've got a bunch of songs which are being played repeatedly at the moment to aid inspiration:

I feel like dancin' - All Time Low - I am so bloomin' excited for their new album!
Setting Sun - Eskimo Joe - SO GOOD
Time Bomb - All Time Low
Hang You Up - Yellowcard
If Today Was Your Last Day - Nickelback
Don't Hold Your Breath - Nicole Sherzinger (I feel like I shouldn't like this, but it's so freaking catchy!)
I Do - Colbie Caillat
Wonderwall - covered by Cartel
I Pray Cruel - Furthest Drive Home - saw these guys live years ago and recently found this on Youtube after getting it stuck in my head.

Let the madness commence. xo.